I find it difficult to believe that 2017 is coming to an end in a few days. This year truly felt like a spinning wheel, everything was constantly moving and things were moving pretty quickly. I have to admit that 2017 is probably going to be a year I’ll always remember because so much happened, so many life-changing decisions were made this year and I personally felt the impact of each and every event that has occurred.
I’m happy and glad at the same time that I was able to wrap up my 2017 at Outward Bound, a week long camp away from everything and everyone focusing on myself only. Never in my life have I ever imagined kayaking 20km or hiking the whole day but I did it no matter how ridiculous it sounded to me. It felt freeing to be away from gadgets and going back to basic lifestyle, appreciating nature and life without technology. It felt rewarding to be able to complete the camp in one piece, unhurt physically and mentally. The timing was too perfect in the sense that it was the best ending I could imagine for an eventful year.
Looking back at 2017, it feels like so much changed. I recalled blogging about New Year at the airport, talking about my goals for the year and it did not even feel like 12 months has passed since. This year is the year I learned about being emotionally independent. I realized certain things about affection, or more like what we assume we know about others feelings. I learned that feelings fluctuate and that’s okay. It happens to everyone, more often than we actually realize. I also learned that some things are not said out loud, but they reflect in others actions. We may not always understand why someone react the way they do but it may be wise to defer judgement until we figure out the reasons behind it. This may sound cliche but yes I did learn that people change, yes they do and that’s fine. We all go through some changes as we go on in life.
This is the year I challenged myself to new things ; did my first all girls road trip in Spain, stayed on a boat, traveled alone to places, graduated for the first time ever, lived alone, put myself out there and give my best in everything I do, stay awake for 48 hours because of exams and so many more. I decided to step up and be brave to face whatever that was coming my way. I enjoyed the freedom of being alone and putting myself first. I focused on grabbing opportunities that was good for me. I allowed myself to make mistakes, take day offs and rest when my body needs it. I cried so much this year and I told myself that it was okay because I laughed a lot too. It was a roller coaster ride for me, with so much happening at a time and living by the day wasn’t as easy. But that’s why 2017 is a memorable one. It made me open my eyes about the blessings I receive within all the challenges I faced. I feel like nothing could prepare me for this year, both the bad and the good. This is the year where I’ve completed all the paths I’ve known since young. What’s next feels blurry because there isn’t any specific paths to go on now.
2018 will be a new beginning with no guidance whatsoever on my future journey. One second I could be doing this and the next second I could be changing totally my life course. What do I expect from 2018 – I have no idea. Previously, I could list down my goals, but for 2018 I’ll keep it to only one, the one that matters regardless of how things may change and that is to do my best in whatever that comes my way. So, here’s to welcoming a new year, a brand new chapter . May it be filled with countless blessings and more life-changing experiences.